What are you longing for? a friend asked me recently. I long for trusting myself. For doing what my body wants to do, my heart, myself. For no more having that much need for external approval… The insight that one can trust one’s desires and that self-force doesn’t work, I got from a programme on dietary transformation (which is much more than just about food). And from Vedanta: My teacher says that we follow values not because we should – but because we realize what we lose by not following them: peace of mind.
It was a safe, at times, exciting job. Nevertheless I did my job only by quitting my job. What led me to my decision? Knowledge about how I can deal with anxiety and feel more at ease with myself, what values truly mean and that I can live with less. Namaste.